hey thanks for the questions. i dont wanna encourage anything, but this is what i did.
so one day i sat in my appartment and after quite some planning i made everything ready for a hospital visit and sat down at the table with my bb gun. just like a toy with plastic beeds. i drank a beer and held it up to my eye multiple times and shot some bbs around the room. and after some more beers i kinda quickly just held the gun at my eye and pressed the trigger somewhat unprepared. immediately it fired and i saw a bright flash and then came a strange pain i threw away the gun and immediatly it hit me. this worked. i did it, ****, im now one eyed. i destroyed a perfectly good eye. in shock that i actually did this i called the ambulance, saying i hurt myself and shot myself in the eye. then i sat there. there was fluid coming out of mv eye. it wanted to shut automaticall and when i forced it open id did not work anymore. i only saw weird flashes and it startet to hurt a lot
the ambulamce came and i was thinking wtf have i done.
at the hospital they treated me instantly and the doctor sayd it needs an operation and i might loose the eye. i agreed to remove the eye if nescesssary and was put under some anesthetic. i was rolled into the op and fell asleep.
when i woke up i had a bandage over my left side of theface and was alone in the room. a nurse came and he looked very serious and saw that i was awake and went to get the doctor. he came and told me there was nothing they could do and that they had to perform an enucleation, so that the eye was gone.
i do not have a prosthetic and opted against the surgery with the implant to put one in. i currently have an empty socket and rock the eyepatch look.
people were very nice to me, including friends and everyone got used to it fast. but in public everyone stares and a lot of people wanna know what happened and if it heals again. i say usually i had an accident and there is nothing left to heal.
the feeling of the empty socket is hard to describe, basically it feels normal but empty. a bit like the eye is shut, which it kind of is.
im almost 25 years old and a gay punk dude if this helps.
yes i want more amputations, mainly my right leg and maybe later my left hand/arm, and my dick but that kind of feels impossible to achieve. the eye was a very easy mod that helped me a lot. maybe i will do some toes or a finger next, but idk.
it was actually not difficult and its a very exciting bodymod for me as its my first amputation of an extremity
my tatoo artist did it and we made a fun game out of it and he threw a dice which finger to remove, since my end wish is to loose the entire hand or arm anyway.
for the final sewing i went to the hospital and said i hurt myself with a saw.
now people cant decide if they want to stare at my eyepatch or at my hand, its hilarious
in the next weeks we will do it again but with two dice.
he injected a local anesthetic and cut the flesh and everything and pulled out the finger from the second joint. it did hurt, but ok. the rest was done in the hospital but since he did not leave enough flesh to wrap around the bone they shortened the bone a bit, so now i have a stump of about 1 cm.
next we are doing the same thing again but with two dice, so two more fingers come off. we said if its a pair (same numbers) than the whole hand will be taken away from me. in that case we will put the whole left hand in liquid co2 so it dies, and then go to the hospital for the amputation. im not sure if im actually ready but i am also super excited.
also we are discussing how far to put in the hand, and for how long so if anyone has an idea please write.
i dont mind even an above elbow amputation, but would love to just loose the hand in a first step so i can experience using a hook.
yes i like loosing my right leg, above the knee, ideally high enough not to be able to wear a prosthetic and be a wheelchair user mostly, or crutches adapted for my missing hand. if my arm is amped higher up its more likely to be impossible.
the dice game is simple. 1-5 are the fingers. from thumb to pinky, 6 means another try. with two dice two fingers come off. if both numbers are the same i loose the whole hand. we also discussed we could do 1-1 means hand, 2-2 low lbe, 3-3 high lbe, 4-4 through the ellbow , 5-5 above the ellbow, 6-6 the dick comes off.
as a one eyed guy now missing a finger i am a bit afraid the hospital might be suspicious at some point, thats why we are discussing to do rbk and the hand freeze at the same time. and then i can allways get a higher amp.
