I am now 35 years old man. I am borned with strange things not heared and seen before in our society. When i start to feel it my age was 14-16. At that time i were ingrore it as a simple thing. And i tried to forget it. But it was not as simple as i think. I tried all things to forget it and to take out it from my mind including by religious method for at least five years. But still the strange desires i am feeling become strongly instead of elimination. After all unsuccessfull trying i decided to accept the reality and to accept myself.
According to my final decision i said for myself that "i am borned differently i am not borned like others. I must to accept myself and take it as my identity then i have to to listen and follow my heart's dream each and everything. So starting from now i have to search solution to acheive my strange deaires.
My desires are somehow complicated and graffic things due to this i would like to apologize you. My desires start from dehumanizing myself. Which means i want to give myself for a person want to make me his/her property. My owners can make me whatever they want as their property for their enjoyment and for their fantasy. I never ever want to live as a human. The second thing after i owned then i want to be amputated all my limbs and become DAK DAE amputee. Under full control of my owners i need my owners to make quad amputee and then make me to live difficult life by doing things by myself without limbs. As i am their property or their slave (who serve them for their fantasy) they can modify my body into whatever they want. But i never ever want to have legs below mid thigh and arms below elbow. Even if they want they can amputate my limbs in small pieces to amputate me many times each limb to gradually decrease me till reach both legs mid thigh and both arms above elbow. In addition to this my owners can remove any parts of my body for their fantasy and enjoyment(but i never ever want to be penetrated my ass by anything).
Thirdly my desire is being extremely and brutally tortured related with torturing. I need form mh owners to torture me extremely the whole the rest of my life. The torturing will be before amputation and also after amputation. I like to be tortured in different ways among them 1) being extremely tied by thin wires on fleshy parts of my limbs till the wire enter to my flesh. 2) to be restrained and locked extremely my movements by different devices and methods. 3) to be bitten and eaten by insects, worms, termites, rats, etc. 4) to be embeded on ground by cement or concrete or by other methods and becom live monument for days. 5) Also to be burried in ground upto my shoulder to be tortured by decomposers and also to be locked in plastick bag with decomposer chemicals. 6) to be nailing dowm on board and tortured by different needles. 7) i should have to fight aggressive dogs without limbs and rhen to be bitten(not dangerously). These and others many unmentioned torturing types will be my day to day life till my emd of life. For more detail please contact me or email me at adnanfedlu28@gmail.com
