I'm a 45 year old lbk wannabe. I have been dealing with this compulsion for about as long as I can remember. It consumes my thoughts daily and I'm not a happy person. I'm married with a young daughter and I'm afraid if my wife found out she may leave me. I have tried and failed recently (dry ice) now I have bad scarring and nerve damage from that failed attempt. I came up with a story about falling asleep with an ice pack on my lower leg. I built a machine that I believe will take it off with one whack but I can't figure out a good cover story and after the last attempt I'm afraid my wife may suspect something. Besides with a clean cut they will most likely try to reattach my leg. If I wasn't married this would be a lot easier but I love my wife dearly. I have also tried to inflict a small wound and get it infected but that did not work either. I feel trapped and do not no where to turn. I wish there was a way to make this happen that made some sense. If anyone knows a method I have not thought of please share it with me.
Hey, sorry about your situation. Cutting it off is probably the most dangerous option, you may bleed to death pretty quickly. Did you use a tourniquet with the dry ice? There isn't really a credible story you could make up for doctors, you may as well confess the truth to them and they're bound by confidentiality rules anyway. For others in your life you can keep it vague.
